My dear SGV7...

Yang Titi kangen adalah saat..

Saat bisa ketawa bareng sama kalian semua..

Saat susah payah kesel gak bisa izin..

Kangen smanda golden voice7 :">

Mungkin....

Kalau bicara tentang manis...

Atau bicara tentang kenangan indah...

Gak bakal pernah selesai.

Setiap detik yang dilewatin selalu menyenangkan.

Bahkan saat bertengkar sekalipun.

Tapi karena kini kita berdua tak lagi layaknya sepasang sepatu..

Tapi karena kini aku tak lagi mengagumimu dari jauh..

Tapi karena kini rasanya sudah menunggu selama sewindu...

Semuanya jadi hambar,

Sudah berkali kali aku memilih untuk pergi..

Tapi selalu ingin kembali lagi.

Aku masih ingat, malam itu,

21 September 2014.

Malam terakhir.

Manis..... Membingungkan....... Hangat........ Tapi dingin.

Mungkin semua hal manis yang kamu berikan.

Atau perhatian berlebihan yang aku berikan.

Hanya bagian kecil dari masa lalu yang kita lewati.

Mungkin yang manis akan selalu jadi manis.... Pada masanya dulu.

Kini..........

Aku sudah tak lagi merasakan setiap manis yang sama. Semuanya sudah biasa saja.

Iya, aku merindukan kamu.

Tapi kita tak lagi seperti dulu.

Tak ada lagi yang menyatukan kita.

Tak ada lagi yang mencoba memulai tegur sapa.

Aku kangen.

Pengen ngebalikin semuanya ke masa aku pertama kali kenal kamu....

Ketawa bareng....

Kamu tahu bagian paling sakit dari melupakan kamu itu apa?

Bukan, bukan saat aku merindukan kamu.

Tapi saat aku de javu..........

Baik baik ya?

Dear Bruno...

Buat kamu.

Hai. Inget gak bulan Juni habis UAS di Gazebo?

Pas baru baru banget makin kenal.

Udah sih cuman mau bilang itu aja.

Sekarang canggung ya?

Enggak.. Aku emang gini. Aku emang super ramah sama semua orang.

Enggak.. Aku gak ngejauh. Aku cuman ikutin ritmenya.

Kapan kita bisa kayak dulu?

Aku kangen.

Aku kangen pas kamu bilang aku cantik.

Aku kangen pas kamu bilang masakan aku enak.

Aku kangen pas kamu bilang "gws tiii".

Aku kangen pas kamu minta maaf karena kamu telat.

Aku kangen pas dengar suara bangun tidur kamu.

Aku kangen pas kita berantem.

Berantem yang gak kayak gini....

Kayak ada hening di antara kita.

Dan aku berharap heningnya cepet berhenti.

Atau menghilang.

Atau kembali seperti dulu.

Aku kangen kamu. Aku kangen pas latihan, kamu salah, dan kita ketawa bareng.

Aku kangen kamu yang hangat.

Kamu dingin.

Aku juga bisa lebih dingin.





Kenapa dulu manis banget sih, Bruno?

-

Kecewa.

Dear

Titi kangen kumpul PPK fullteam.
Titi kangen Raa..
Titi kangen Ling..
Titi gak kangen Ayesh:{ #eh
Titi kangen Nanu!!!!!
Titi... Agak kangen Pipin. Tiap hari ketemu di kelas:{
Titi kangen Ham.

Udah lama gak diomelin Ham.
Udah lama gak berantem sama Ham.
Udah lama gak kepoin Ham.

Hmm... Kangen PPK.

Well, hello!

Patner gila baru. Aku sayanggggg banget sama Afra, Linda, Sanu, Alvin & Ilham!!!! Akakakak jangan rese mele.

Truly moodbooster:3

Ling, Ra & Ham!

Yeah

I was there for you in your darkest times,

but I wonder where were you?

-Maroon 5, Maps

MISS YOU!

KANGENNNNN!

I wish that we will know more about each other. 

If you could read this

Your smile is totally my moodbooster. 
The way we talk each other. 
The way your voice really soft when you talk to me. 
The way your voice really loud when you talk to others. 
The way our silly awkwardness when we're together. 
The way you say wrong lyrics, I turn away and we're laughing together. 
The way you sing with me. 
The way you look at me in the eyes. 
The way I cant see your eyes because they're amazingly warm for me. 
The way you listen to my opinion. 
The way you moves around me. 
The way we stand together. 
The way your craziness is my day. 
The way your big smile is for me. 
The way you're listening to my voice carefully. 
The way I could talk much to you now. 
The way I could be sooo easily makes you calm down when youre get upset, tired or really confused, and they stand there and said "wow, he's listening what you said." 
The way they said I really "good" at making convo with you even I think you're text isnt nice as others guy do. 
The way you're really nice and warm to me now.
The way you still remember what I asked you even it's late night.
The way I see that you're really awkwardly fucked up when I said I want to cook something for you and they said "you did a great job." 
And the way you text me "get well soon" in personal chat when other say it in our group chat.

Impress someone isnt my good things and I dont want to impress you. I want you to see me the way I am now. Well, maybe it's fuckin silly but I wondered if you know how amazing my day when I could meet you. 

I wont set my hope too high but I really wish, we'll happy together;)


Xoxo, dear you.

Sexy Always Holding Hands!

I will miss you guys... Ini sedih beneran mau pisah. Parah, I will miss you.

Yes you were.

You broken my heart

And now you leave me

-Queen, Love of My Life

Re-watch

If I could meet my own Adit:">

Late night post

I'm tired.

Oh my universe, this is the highest level of tired. I just tired.

Why. Why. Just stop blame me. JUST STOP.

Why. Oh why, universe...

Everything seems lovely in the beginning, but it has changed.

Everything has changed.

Nothing's fun anymore.

IV-VI

"What's your name?"

"Beatr... Tris! My name is Tris!"

"First jumper, Tris! Welcome to Dauntless."

-Divergent

Karma does exist

Aku masih inget aku bilang kamu gak peka. Kamu gak perduli. Kamu careless. 

Taunya... Hahaha... You have to know,  Greys. Karma does exist.

Aku menemukan orang yang seperti itu. Gak peka. Gak perduli. Totally careless.

Dia mirip kamu, jika aku yang melihatnya. Kamu dan dia punya koneksi masing masing denganku. Tapi dia tampak begitu menarik karena aku baru mengenalnya...

And he reminds me of you. All the time. All the day.

But I've to moved on.

My nights

Back to my daily routine. School. School. School. Such as something that looks so bored but I have to. Well.. Well.. Well..

I feel like I'm alone nowdays.

I may fall in love with you.

Well, yeah.

Sebenarnya ini tuh apa?

Rizki Rahmadania Putri, 12 tahun.
Blogger baru, anak-baru-SMP, stuck di mantan.

Rizki Rahmadania Putri, 13 tahun.
Blogger yang desperate ngegebet kakak kelas & sahabatnya. Taunya friendzone. Shit.

Rizki Rahmadania Putri, 14 tahun. 
Blogger galau, super galau, gak tau malu, curhatin gebetan aja. Gebetan yang bikin hujan terasa hangat. Gebetan yang duduk di belakangnya. Gebetan yang.. Yang. Yang. Yang. Bikin stuck hampir 2 tahun.

Rizki Rahmadania Putri, 15 tahun. 
Blogger yang bilangnya udah move on, coba move on kesana kemari. Asal gebet orang, hampir balikan ke mantan, dipatahin hatinya sama kakak senior yang jadi temen otp-an tiap malam.. Hem.

Rizki Rahmadania Putri, baru 51 hari jadi 16 tahun.
Setengah tahun pura pura kosong, padahal suka mikirin yang dulu dulu, sekarang dalam proses maksa move on. Cari pelarian.

Jadi tahun ini.. Aku ketemu yang baru gak ya?

Hello

Hello, 2014.

It's been a long time ago since the last time I write here. September to February. It's a long time, huh?

Another late night post...

I've been changing a lot in 5 months. You wont find me so 'galau' as always. So 'ribut' as always. I've changed. A lot.

The man who I wrote last time has gone already for 5 months and he left this heart which is breaking to be a very little piece of each side. Lebay banget gue. HAHAHA. But he changed me. Time changed me. I've been grown up.

Even I've grown up not-really-mature like 'mature' but I've changed. To be better person. To be a mature teen girl.

I supposed to do my tasks but I remember this blog. My attention was stolen by my main blog so this blog will be so.. So..

I wont make any promise but you need to know that maybe I'll go here, write some late night post and forget everything.

Maybe this is my last place to throw my sucks-life because I vowed that I wont 'so-open-person' (aduh bahasanya Tip) again at my 'main' account nowdays. 

People changed. So do I.

I miss the old me. But I couldnt be the old me anymore. Because my life need a new me. So I have to change.

Change my self. Change my way. Change my act. 


Like everyone else did to me.